My Deeper Insights into Forgiveness

About 6 months ago I had about 4 days where everything I watched and everything I was shown in daily life and all my flows where all around Compassion. I had the deepest insights and experiences into Compassion and I truly understood it more.
I have to take this opportunity to thank My spiritual Mother ling Hui Sheng Shi (Guan Yin) for this as she allowed me to see through her eyes and experience true compassion.

The same things have been taking place for me over the past week, only this time it is all based on Forgiveness.

Over the last few weeks my work has really got busy (which I am deeply grateful for). What I started to experience is how I started to have less and less time with the family and to do my practices (meditations) also I started to get tiered.
This started to bring a lot of testing into my life which I was deeply grateful for.

I received a clear message that I was not doing enough dedicated Forgiveness practice.
I had a insight while waiting for the train one morning. Heaven showed me how forgiveness works on a physical level, and I really had a deep insight through this.

I was shown a situation where someone had really upset me. What I was shown was not a actual event it was a example and it was from a time before I found Master Sha.

I couldn't forgive this soul for what they had done. Whatever they had done I saw it as 'unforgivable'
but I was shown that this soul was genuinely sorry for there mistake but I couldn't forgive them.
The soul who had made a mistake against me went through a lot of mental and emotional suffering for what they had done to me, and asked for forgiveness everyday.

There was a point where I saw this person go through so much suffering and continuously asking for forgiveness that I actually felt in my heart that this soul was truly sorry, and I had so much compassion for him and love and forgiveness.

I realized that the soul world is exactly the same and when we make mistakes it takes more than just saying I am sorry a few times to be forgiven. That's why Master Sha encourages humanity to do as much sincere forgiveness as possible.

Bare in mind this insight that was given to me was a example! I was not shown what this soul had done to me and I was told the situation was not real it was just to give me a deeper understanding.

The reason I emphasize this is because I obviously didn't get it enough!

The next night I went to bed and had a dream. This was not a normal dream. I was put in a situation that was real. I was made to feel every single emotion that was going on in my whole family and I was actually living it.

The dream was very disturbing and terrifying so I wont go into detail. But I will explain briefly.

I was put in one of the worst situations a father and husband could possibly be in. Not only I was in the worst situation but so was Danielle and Beau.

I cant begin to put into words how real this was and how painful this was.
Actually in my dream I remember thinking "I need to Kill this man as soon as possible" (the man who was putting me and my family in this situation) then, In my dream I remember thinking 'What would Jesus do in this situation?'

There was no happy ending in sight, either choice I made was going to hurt those that mean the most to me and I felt destroyed.

Then my alarm woke me up for work. I felt like I had been beat up. My head was banging and I felt dehydrated and sick in my stomach from what I had just been through.

I had no illusions that what had just happened was real. I instantly received a message to my spiritual channels..... "Nick you have put someone in this situation"

I felt like vomiting. How could I have ever done something so mean to another man and his family. I drove to work that day and literally cried the whole way to work begging for forgiveness. Even as I write this now I am holding in my tears and I have such a sadness and pain in my heart.

I can never thank Heaven enough for this experience.  Heaven gave me this experience so I can be more sincere in my forgiveness practices and in day to day life.

I understand deeper how I have to earn the right to be forgiven for the mistakes I have made in this life and past lives, and how I need to serve more.
I honestly thought to myself 'I deserve to die for my actions'. This experience humbled me more than anything I have ever been told I have done because it was a experience.
I lived it, I was there. but Heaven is so kind and generous that I woke from my terror, they just let me experience so I can serve more and understand the pain that is going on in the world.

When you feel the pain that you have put others through it is a humbling experience. How can you not bow to the ground, how can you not beg for forgiveness.

These souls we have turned to the dark side where good souls once, but they where hurt so bad.
To think we have turned good souls bad is heart breaking.

You know what was a huge eye opener to me? The day after I had this dream, when I would replay the situation in my head I still was thinking 'if I was in that situation I would have to try and take the guy out'

I told Danielle what I had experienced and Danielle said to me "Nick you do realize that if we where ever in that situation you would have to leave me and save Beau, and you understand Karma so you would have to do this" This brought such pain in my heart, but I knew Danielle was right.

The next day I spoke to my friend Kane and told him about my experience. We both spoke about what we would do and Kane said "When you received the message 'what would Jesus do?' that's the truth right there,The second you bring violence into the situation it goes from bad to worse, you would have to just love and forgive the soul and show your compassion to the situation"
I knew this in my heart but I couldn't see it until Kane said it. I really thought about Jesus and what he went through and his followers and loved ones and Beloved mother Mary.

I realize now even deeper that the reason I was still thinking what I was thinking was still Heaven showing me how hard it is for these souls to forgive us for the mistakes we have made.

This experience was life changing, truly. I will serve more, I will ask for forgiveness for my mistakes forever.

Anyone who is reading this I want to apologize for any mistakes me or my ancestors have ever made towards you or your loved ones, I can never ever bow down enough
I will serve as much as I can to bring universal love Peace and Harmony

I hope my experience has served you in some way.

Love you all with all my heart

Love Nicholas Giannasi x